WHY

Just riding in my car I was trying to answer many different "why" questions. Then the biggest of all "why" questions popped into my mind, "Why are we all here?" So this is my answer to this question.
I think humans were put on earth to be the organizers, to organize the chaos. Let's face it that's what life is, organized chaos. Right now, the chaos is taking over. Right when we think we have it all taken care of, something comes along and ruins it. In this world, at this very moment, most people are overwhelmed. As a high schooler this happens every day. I finish my homework, start watching TV, actually that order is usually switched, but I get things done. Then, something I completely forgot about, comes and bites me in the butt. This time of year is already hard for me. It contains my dead brother's birthday and his death anniversary. Recently I also suffered from great disappointment. IT IS NOT MY YEAR. I am too overwhelmed. As is everybody. That is why chaos is taking over earth. We need to but our big-kid pants on and get a hold of our lives. So WHY are we here, I think we are here to simply help continue our organized chaos. I am going to try and make next year the best year of my life and live the life of my dreams.

I am going to change the world

I just finished dinner and felt like blogging, so i did. Well........ I am fourteen years old and I can't stop thinking about what I am going to do when I am out of college. That is in seven and a half years. I know I am going to have my non-profit but I feel as though I will need something else.
My whole life people have told me that they know I am going to do amazing things and be very successful. They tell me I am very determined, so if I want to be successful, I will be. As I think about this, I know I am. I am very determined to do many different things. The other day I was telling my grandpa that before I die women will be paid as much as men. He said that it was near impossible but he thought I could change it for a lot of people. Before I die, people will be healthier and there will be little to no child obesity. It is truly outrageous, the way we are living right now.  Also I am going to make sure that there is less bullying. No more suicides and kids getting beat up. I am determined to accomplish these things, and I will. Many people that read this will think I am crazy. Those people are the ones I want to change. Everyone should live their life of dreams. Everyone needs to be able to believe that they alone can change the world or just be able to do anything that they want with out people judging them. My life of dreams will be accomplished when everyone else's life of dreams is accomplished.

What's next?

I have no idea what is next for me. I have lost my ever lasting love for cooking. I still like to cook but I don't think that it is still my passion. I have always love to design clothes and just fashion in general. So I am going to talk to some people and ask if I can be their apprentice. Doing this will help me see if maybe I want to design clothes. The only thing I know for sure I am going to do is start a non-for profit. I am going to call it Hart's Heart, after my brother Hart who died when he was 24 days old. This non for profit is for babies in the NICU and their families. Hopefully less people will have to go through what I did. That is one of my true passions. I know it is. When I think of the kids and families I can help I just smile. And who knows maybe I can do a fashion show fundraiser where I do the designing or a fundraiser I can cook for. For now I am just going to try my hardest to do well in school, so if I end up needing amazing grades I will already have them. I have a gut feeling I was put on this earth to change it, and I plan to. I will do it while living my life of dreams.

I have an idea....

I have an idea about how I am going to put my two blogs together. I think I am going to stop posting on my other blog and just put the recipes on here. The recipes go with my dream of becoming a chef. So with every new dream I post about, I will also post a new recipe. It can be the recipe of the day or week. It just really depends on how often I will me posting. Also how often I suddenly have a new dream for my life. This blog is definitely helping me live my life of dreams.

Something?...

Okay, recently I have started a second blog, the problem is I need to somehow combine this one with my other one. I don't really know how to go about this. My second blog is about the cooking in my life and has some yummy recipes. I think I might try to just add that one to this one. Oh well, for now I will just write different posts and manage two different blogs. Maybe this will be a lesson for the future some how, so that I can live my life of dreams. :)

Should have been a dream.....

The other day I went to a Barenaked Ladies concert. I had I sign that said "Best birthday present ever." The lead singer of the Barenaked Ladies saw my sign and told me happy birthday. It was the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. It should have been one of my dreams. Going to the Barenaked Ladies concert was amazing. Jukebox the Ghost opened for them and they were so adorable and amazing. The whole concert experience is like no other and I would love to experience it again. Further concerts will help me live my life of dreams.

A Dream or Two:)

It is my birthday in three days and I have been dreaming about it for the past three weeks. In those three weeks, I have been counting down to my big day. My dreams for the past month also included a certain someone. I saw him when I was on vacation and we talked very, very briefly. He was really sweet with the children he was playing with and matter of factly, he was cute.

I don't really want to stop thinking about him, but I should. He lives in the same neighborhood as my grandparents, so I will probably see him again. Maybe in a year, maybe in three years! At least I want to! But for now I won't think about him. I will focus on thinking about more important things in my life right now besides boys.

True love is very important to me because I have seen true love between my parents and I have seen "love" then ends in divorce. So I want the real deal. I want everyone to find true love. Another dream of mine isn't really for me, it's for humanity. I wish that everyone could find true love, whether they don't find it until the day they die or if it is their first crush. It could be their "enemy" or it could be their childhood best friend. So this dream is that people will find the one they are meant to be with.

The big dream of all of this is that true love will find it's way for me and will find it's way for everyone. So that everyone can live their life of dreams and so that I can live my life of dreams.

My Dream of Becoming a Chef

After I hopefully go to Georgetown I want to go to culinary school. Then after culinary school I want to open my own restaurant and be the head chef. The other day I was told that I don't have to go to college to become a chef but then I realized that I need and want the knowledge I will learn and the experience I will have at college. (I realized this after my mother told me that I have to go to college.)
When I open my restaurant I want to name it something with my name in it. I have been thinking about either Annabelita's, Annabel Lee's, or Annabella's. After some thinking I really would like to name it Annabel Lee's. This is because I was named after Edgar Allen Poe's poem "Annabel Lee."  I am still not sure about what kind of food I will serve but I have a while so I am not stressing about it. The wait to open my restaurant will be excruciating but I am trying to be patient. With patience and persistence I know that I will be able to accomplish my life of dreams.

My First Post

This is the first blog I have ever created and it is very exciting. This blog is about my dreams and ambitions. Some of them everyone has dreamed about. The others you might not understand why some one so young is thinking about it.  In my first entry I am going to talk about one of my largest dreams. My dream of going to Georgetown University. 

I am only 13 years old but ever since I heard about Georgetown I have wanted to go there. I will be a freshman this upcoming year and I have been thinking about this college since I started sixth grade. It just seems like the perfect college for me. No one can deny that it is a great college and with that it is more difficult to get into. This is why I am taking AP environmental science this year. I figure the more AP's I take the better my chances will be. All through out high school I will be thinking about Georgetown so I will work harder. So that I can ultimately live my life of dreams.