WHY

Just riding in my car I was trying to answer many different "why" questions. Then the biggest of all "why" questions popped into my mind, "Why are we all here?" So this is my answer to this question.
I think humans were put on earth to be the organizers, to organize the chaos. Let's face it that's what life is, organized chaos. Right now, the chaos is taking over. Right when we think we have it all taken care of, something comes along and ruins it. In this world, at this very moment, most people are overwhelmed. As a high schooler this happens every day. I finish my homework, start watching TV, actually that order is usually switched, but I get things done. Then, something I completely forgot about, comes and bites me in the butt. This time of year is already hard for me. It contains my dead brother's birthday and his death anniversary. Recently I also suffered from great disappointment. IT IS NOT MY YEAR. I am too overwhelmed. As is everybody. That is why chaos is taking over earth. We need to but our big-kid pants on and get a hold of our lives. So WHY are we here, I think we are here to simply help continue our organized chaos. I am going to try and make next year the best year of my life and live the life of my dreams.

I am going to change the world

I just finished dinner and felt like blogging, so i did. Well........ I am fourteen years old and I can't stop thinking about what I am going to do when I am out of college. That is in seven and a half years. I know I am going to have my non-profit but I feel as though I will need something else.
My whole life people have told me that they know I am going to do amazing things and be very successful. They tell me I am very determined, so if I want to be successful, I will be. As I think about this, I know I am. I am very determined to do many different things. The other day I was telling my grandpa that before I die women will be paid as much as men. He said that it was near impossible but he thought I could change it for a lot of people. Before I die, people will be healthier and there will be little to no child obesity. It is truly outrageous, the way we are living right now.  Also I am going to make sure that there is less bullying. No more suicides and kids getting beat up. I am determined to accomplish these things, and I will. Many people that read this will think I am crazy. Those people are the ones I want to change. Everyone should live their life of dreams. Everyone needs to be able to believe that they alone can change the world or just be able to do anything that they want with out people judging them. My life of dreams will be accomplished when everyone else's life of dreams is accomplished.

What's next?

I have no idea what is next for me. I have lost my ever lasting love for cooking. I still like to cook but I don't think that it is still my passion. I have always love to design clothes and just fashion in general. So I am going to talk to some people and ask if I can be their apprentice. Doing this will help me see if maybe I want to design clothes. The only thing I know for sure I am going to do is start a non-for profit. I am going to call it Hart's Heart, after my brother Hart who died when he was 24 days old. This non for profit is for babies in the NICU and their families. Hopefully less people will have to go through what I did. That is one of my true passions. I know it is. When I think of the kids and families I can help I just smile. And who knows maybe I can do a fashion show fundraiser where I do the designing or a fundraiser I can cook for. For now I am just going to try my hardest to do well in school, so if I end up needing amazing grades I will already have them. I have a gut feeling I was put on this earth to change it, and I plan to. I will do it while living my life of dreams.