What's next?

I have no idea what is next for me. I have lost my ever lasting love for cooking. I still like to cook but I don't think that it is still my passion. I have always love to design clothes and just fashion in general. So I am going to talk to some people and ask if I can be their apprentice. Doing this will help me see if maybe I want to design clothes. The only thing I know for sure I am going to do is start a non-for profit. I am going to call it Hart's Heart, after my brother Hart who died when he was 24 days old. This non for profit is for babies in the NICU and their families. Hopefully less people will have to go through what I did. That is one of my true passions. I know it is. When I think of the kids and families I can help I just smile. And who knows maybe I can do a fashion show fundraiser where I do the designing or a fundraiser I can cook for. For now I am just going to try my hardest to do well in school, so if I end up needing amazing grades I will already have them. I have a gut feeling I was put on this earth to change it, and I plan to. I will do it while living my life of dreams.